Chapter 11 (Volume 2)

19 March 1996- Got up around 5am. Took bath- got kids up and ate breakfast. By 6am, I was worn out and had to go back to bed because I was exhausted. So much for my going to work today- at least I tried!!

Slept till about 9am then got up and dusted and vacuumed downstairs. Then I rested some more. Was very rainy and dreary outside.

Read and did some praying- rested, but didn't really sleep.

John had to teach at Davidson so Spencer had me to himself- we read Goosebumps book. Went to bed around 9pm.

20 March 1996- Went back to work today- I seem to be over my last bout with chemotherapy. Did not get tired during the day but by 9pm, I was ready to crash.

Jimmy and Jerome were at house when I got home from work. Hadn't seen them in ages.

21 March 1996- Had staff meeting. Gary H took me out to lunch today- we had a nice visit. Was real tired after reading to Spencer, but got in bed and couldn't sleep. Had stomach cramps- woke up several times.

22 March 1996- My squad was back on duty today. Took distribution downtown and got to visit with a bunch of people. George H and Jim F came out to SS and visited with me for about 2 hrs. I didn't get much work done today, but enjoying visiting with people I hadn't got to see for awhile. Took Lorazapam to sleep.

23 March 1996- Drill- was late, but stayed at Armory while everybody else went to Butner to qualify. Was a long day. Came home and John and I went to a progressive dinner our Sunday School class had. It was enjoyable.

24 March 1996- Drill- This is the first time everybody saw my wig. They all said they liked it. Came home and walked dog- was very tired and tried to rest. John and I went to the store. Bed at 10pm.

25 March 1996- Got up and sent a Birthday e-mail gram to Lyn Nell. Typical Monday- very busy. Dale took me out to lunch at K & W today. Did two evaluations. After dinner, John started moving furniture, didn't get to bed until 10pm. Slept in master bedroom. Spencer woke me up with a cough at 1:40 and after getting up to give him medicine, I couldn't sleep so I went down to couch. Slept very little between 2:00-4:30am.

26 March 1996- Was really tired today, because I did not sleep well night before. Went to get blood work done today- talked to Valarie. She suggested maybe giving me a sedative next time to make me sleep first 24 hours. Came home and got my room cleaned so furniture can be moved in. John wasn't home.

27 March 1996- Was really tired today- it was hard to get up. This moving furniture, cleaning & stuff is really getting to me. Worked on time cards and monthly report. After dinner, John and Joel moved furniture into guest room- it looks real nice. I was exhausted when I went to bed as it was after 10pm.

28 March 1996- Was really tired today- all this mving and cleaning is killing me. The new bed in the guest room was very comfortable! Worked on evaluations at work- only have about four done. Was rainy and cold all day. Patsy called me and said she has some bills ready for me- it looks like about $500 so far- eek! After supper, we worked more on moving and cleaning- don't think it will ever end. Cindy brought me a dinner to substation- that was so thoughtful of her! *Found out Debbie J. has breast cancer! She already had lump removed, but will have more surgery next week. Poor girl- I think she's still in shock! Told her to call me if she has any questions.

29 March 1996- I took day off work so I could get the home staightened up- the upstairs is SO torn up from moving furniture. I cleaned all day one room at a time. Spencer came home and feel asleep in his room, so after cleaning John's room- I decide to get his room after dinner. I was under the impression all week that Spencer would be spending the night with Joshua. John came home and he was tired and got VERY angry about the hall and Spencer's room still in a mess. We had a knock down drag out fight- one of the worst we have had in our marriage- we were screaming and yelling at each other!! It was terrible!! I just wanted to die right then- it was just too hard to go on. I feel like I can never make John happy or be the kind of wife he needs or wants.

John took Spencer and left after dinner and went to Kevin's house. I finished cleaning and went to bed- still hurt and upset about our fight.

30 March 1996- I got up at 6am and woke John up then went back to bed. He came into my room about 7 to apologize to me- I was still upset and told him that we had no kind of family life. We talked for awhile and somewhat resolved things- I was very emotional and was exhausted from the whole ordeal. Got up and took a bath. I began cleaning around 10am- cleaned downstairs then after lunch , I tackled the storage room on the carport. John came by and wanted me to go with him to Tanglewood to deliver a wedding. I did and we talked some. Came home and John napped while I finished cleaning the storage room. Spencer had gone with Joshua and Kevin earlier, so Joel, John and I went out for Chinese, We dropped Joel back off at house and John and I went to Trudy's and Kevin's house. Trudy and I played SCRABBLE (I won), then we all played SCATTEGORIES. On way home to T-ville we passed a truck that was badly weaving- obviously a drunk driver- as I watched I saw the driver lose control and run off the right side of the road and the truck flipped a couple of times. I saw someone being thrown out. I told John to turn around- when we got to the scene one man (passenger) was conscious and had been thrown out the back window into the truck bed. The driver had been thrown out into the ground into a ditch. His body was contorted and it appeared from the way he was laying that he had a broken neck. I could not detect any signs of life- no breathing- so I did not attempt to move him. I told John to go get help and I would stay with the accident. I talked with the passenger and he stated "William Hollis" was driving. He had some bad facial cuts, but nothing serious. John returned about 5 minutes later and the SGT Deaton with T-ville PD came. I stayed till SHP and wrote out a statement for them. The accident occured at around 12:40 hrs and we didn't get home till around 2am. Joel was still up and very worried about us. John and I each took a Lorazepam to sleep.

31 March 1996- Didn't get up till around 9am. I ate a quick breakfast and then went to church- John and Joel didn't make it. After church, John and I went to Winston Salem for an antique show then went to pick up Spencer at Kevin's house. I came home and ironed. Went to bed around 10pm.

1 April 1996- Usual day- worked on stats- so I could do evaluations. Stayed busy since B Squad was on duty. Paid bills- bed 9:45pm.

2 April 1996- Finished up on evaluations. Went to Police Club- it was good seeing some people again. Many people didn't recognize me with my wig. Also, went to see Debbie J in the hospital- she was doing good and was in good spirits.

3 April 1996- Worked on monthly report & evaluations. Had appt with Dr. Magrinant. I was late 'cuz I thought the appointment was 3:30 not 2:30! He said my bloodwork was very good and he said that indicates that I should recover quickly from the Bone Marrow Transplant. He also scheduled me for a CAT scan for the 15th of April.

4 April 1996- Had 3rd treatment. Peggy G and Ann P took me. This time they gave me Zophran in an IV. It made me dizzy. Came home and took more Zophran and a suppository and slept. Diedra brought dinner.

5 April 1996- Good Friday! Was feeling much better. Cleaned downstairs. Took a nap. Jackie and Laura brought over dinner. John and Spencer went to Kevin's house.

6 April 1996- did not get up until 8:30am. John had already gone to work. Cleaned upstairs- took a nap- Trudy and Kevin ate dinner with us. Sat around and talked till 11pm. I am feeling O.K.- took last of Zophran today.

7 April 1996- Easter!! Slept late. We forgot to set our clocks back- so we were about 20 minutes late to church. Started feeling bad at church- my stomach was queasy- came home and bundled up. It was so COLD!! I slept a good portion of afternoon. John and I went to grocery store and then we watched TV.

8 April 1996- Got up and took bath and ate breakfast. Tried to get ready for work, but was just unable to go. Went back to sleep and didn't get up till 9:30am. Rested, ironed and watched TV. John did major yard work. We all watched TV together. Bed at 10pm.